Friday, November 06, 2009

Birthdays and other days...

Today would have been my mom's 52nd birthday. She's been gone for almost 6 years and it still seems surreal at times. Fairly often, I catch myself thinking, "She can't really be gone". As much as I am thankful that she is in the most beautiful, wonderful place, sitting with her Savior and has no more sickness and pain, I still so badly want her to be here with me, her family & her friends. I want her to be a mother to her adult daughter who is now a mother, to be a grandmother to her granddaughters, to enjoy the little things together like shopping and TV shows and movies.

It's just another day. There is rarely (if ever) a day I don't think about her, but birthdays (of hers, of mine), holidays, and of course the anniversary of the day she died, are prominent reminders that she's not here. The hurt hasn't lessened at all. I wonder it ever will. I'm sad. I miss her.


LaurieJo said...

I'm so sorry, Alicia. I can't imagine how it feels, but I'm so proud of you for living in it and facing the pain and sadness. It's difficult, but necessary in order to live in the joys of life as well.

Love you dearly.

The Casady Clan said...

Thanks friend! Appreciate the kind words.

By the way, saw your pics from the park the other day - very cute! You are a very photogenic family.