Monday, July 21, 2008

Blogging Just To Blog

At the moment, I have no stories to tell, no anecdotes to share, I just haven't blogged in a while, so I'm filling some space. So, here go the random thoughts that pop out...

It's already been two weeks since I blogged about the 4th of July...meaning summer is on the downhill swing. I'm not excited about this fact at all (although it will mean Mizzou football)! My kids aren't in school yet, so I don't have "back to school" to look forward to, although I constantly marvel that two summers from now, Cameron WILL be getting ready to start school! I love summer because of warm (or hot) weather, many sunny days, long daylight hours to be/play outside, swimming, getting a tan, BBQs, ice cream (although this I love even in the dead of winter), vacations and a more casual way of life for our family. With our kids as young as they are, our summer is not busy at all. I know better than to wish my girls to grow up any quicker than they already are, but I do wonder what life is going to be like in just a few years. Will my girls get involved in the activities and sports that I want them to be a part of or will I need to learn something new to engage with them? I have promised myself I won't pressure them into the sports I played and loved, but I know it will be hard to fulfill that promise. I watched my 11-year-old cousin, Kelsey, play basketball at the Show-Me-State Games this weekend and loved watching her team play. It took me back in time, wishing I had started earlier...maybe I'd have been a little better. It made me want to coach...hopefully I'll have the opportunity when my kids get to basketball-playing age. And if they don't play basketball, well...let's not go there yet.

More randomness...I watched an incredibly sad and yet wonderful movie last night. I cried pretty much the entire movie, but still loved it. It might have been the mood I was in, or just that I hadn't had a good cry in a while because I can see myself watching it again and not being quite so affected by it. It was P.S. I Love You, with Hilary Swank and Gerard Butler, not to mention Jeffrey Dean Morgan and Harry Connick, Jr. Anyway, Holly (Hilary) & Gerry (Gerard) are married and Gerry dies of a brain tumor at the age of 35. Tragic, of course, but then beginning on her 30th birthday, she receives a cake and a letter from him, followed by gifts (including a vacation) and letters. They are filled with things he wants her to do to take care of herself and to get back out in the world. I haven't figured out yet if this would be unhealthy for a person, only increasing the grief with each letter or just a special gift to be able to hear from that person a bit longer as you begin a new "normal". So, I cried because there are so many times I wish my mom had been able to write something, a journal, card, a letter good-bye. I wasn't with my mom when she died, so it partly comes from that regret and wanting closure and the chance to say good-bye. I also cried because unfortunately I let myself GO THERE sometimes and wonder what if that were to happen to me. I am SO blessed to have Devon for my husband (of almost 8 years!) and two beautiful, special girls, so I don't dwell for long.

On another note, (because I can't end on that!), Cami got her hair cut a little over a week ago. She adamantly refuses for me to fix it...EVER, so we decided to cut it and see what it would do. Because her hair isn't very thick, we weren't sure, but we are so glad we did. She now has an adorable style and refers to herself as the "blue" girl from Charlie & the Chocolate Factory. See for yourself...

Okay, so not the best picture to capture her cute "do", but she wasn't being completely cooperative (imagine that!), but it won't be long before I post more. Oh and the day after she got it cut, she said, "I want a pink (meaning the holder) ponytail". Go figure.

And not to leave little sister she is in all her cuteness.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

4th of July Weekend

I hate when weekends are over. They always seem to fly by and three-day weekends are no different seem to go even faster, if that's possible. Technically, I don't have a job I have to go back to on Monday, but then again, I guess I do. I love having my husband home for two full days, not only to spend quality time with him & the girls, but so that he shoulders some of the load of caring for them. That being said, we had a really nice time visiting my Dad and some extended family in my hometown of Dixon this weekend.

On the 4th, we had a fish fry with my Grandpa, aunts, uncle and cousins. The fish was caught last September when my Dad, Grandpa and Uncle Howie & Aunt Marlene went to Canada. It was yummy! They had been wanting to fry it for a long time since they'll be going back this September. After the fish fry at Grandpa's, we went out to my parents' house and shot off fireworks as well as watched the fireworks being shot off from the surrounding houses. Cameron covered her ears every time, but she did admit they were pretty, just too loud. She even got to hold a few sparklers. We thought Rory would be in bed, but with all the people, she just didn't want to be away from the excitement, although being outside with the fireworks wasn't exactly her cup of tea either. She cuddled on my shoulder and jumped several times with the louder fireworks, but never cried.

On Saturday, we went swimming at the Country Club where my Dad is a member. I thought there might be a big crowd since the weather was cloudy and unseasonably cool the day before, but surprisingly it wasn't crowded at all. The girls pretty much had the run of the place and enjoyed swimming in the kiddie pool and with us in the big pool. Devon got to play a couple of rounds of golf this weekend which he really enjoyed. I would have liked to play, too, but someone had to watch the girls. Speaking of that, my aunt (Nanny), and cousins, Keri & Kelsey watched the girls Saturday evening while Devon, my Dad and I went to see Hancock and had dinner at Cracker Barrel.

Sunday we went to church and watched the incredible Wimbledon tennis match where Nadal eventually bested Federer. All in all, a great weekend!